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I usually don’t answer memes from people. It’s just not my style, but Bobby from Revellian has always written highly of me, so I feel this one is for him. This is stemming from his definitely freaky post of a near death experience. It was a great story and I’m glad he is alright, please read the post it’s good!

This meme was started by Christy’s Coffee Break. I like her blog, it’s got quite the geeky appeal to it. The freaky fridays meme is an interesting idea I think, something different. I like these niche posts that explore different things.

The Death of a Loved One

I’m not much of a believer in ghosts, ghouls, or shadowy creatures of the night for many various reasons. I’m not so sure how much I believe in a great afterlife, I think it is an attempt of our brains to try to comprehend this crazy world. Death is not an easy think to deal with, when it is loved ones, friends, or complete strangers. I think it is easy to put ourselves in their shoes, which is why death is so personal.

Time: 2000-2001, the turn of the century occurred, Y2K was a bust, and I was finishing my last year of high school. Also, this was the most trying year of my entire life, so far.

I had dealt with death before that point in time and I thought I was fully prepared for what was occurring. One of my good friends at schools died from a insulin related complication. Another one of my classmates committed suicide. And another one of my classmates that went to another school at the time was accidentally shot with a shotgun and died. School was crazy and looking back it was mostly a blur.

Furthermore, my uncle, stepfather’s dad, great-grandmother, and grandmother also died in this time period. If you weren’t counting that was 7 people in a time span of a year. I was definitely burned out on funerals. I think the hardest death to deal with was my grandmother’s death. As a young child she would take care of me on numerous occasions. She was such a kind hearted woman and backbone of my dad’s side of the family.

The accumulation of all the past months of death was at its peak and I didn’t know how much more I could take. My family and I were at my grandma’s house after the funeral and were looking through all the old pictures. So many great memories in the pages of the photo albums sprawled across the floor. The tears were welling up for many different reasons. The good times, the bad times, the times that would no longer be. The world had changed.

In the darkness of moments, it seems the littlest things can bring you back from the fringe. As I could no longer view memories of the oh-so-recent past, I decided to go out on the back porch for some fresh air.

As I walked out on the back porch, I looked to the sky, and I saw one of the brightest shooting stars I have ever seen. I don’t know if it was coincidence or someone up above looking out for me, but after that point I knew everything would be alright. Maybe it just put everything into perspective; we are small in the grand scale of things.

I’m not sure if it was really a strange coincidence or not. That shooting star has played a big role in my life and for whatever reason it has helped me. For all the loss I have seen in my life: I will carry on not only for myself, but for the ones that are not with me today.

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I’m not going to tag anyone with this meme. The meme stops here. This was a fun little experiment, so I will see how it plays out.